Sunday, May 30, 2010

Persevere.

Amoled.




Bloody hell, the things After School girls can do...
*motivated*

Monday, May 24, 2010

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Recently

It's been better :D
I still miss the old times. I still miss how everything had been :D
But the new times, I'm going to try to craft it well, so that I can look back in future and say, "I miss those old times too" :)

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY HILMIE, btw :D :D
21ST MAY!
One of my closer friends in AJC! :)

So see, I will make it :)

Thank you Hwee Chek & Guo Sheng, you two have really made my time in AJC more precious :)
POWERPUFF GIRLS MUCH!!! HAHAHA.

Tomorrow's GESS CARNIVAL!!!
Back to the small little school, with a strong dragon on the left and a sturdy ship on the right :D

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Happy Thoughts.

Motivational stuff, whether really inspiring or not, really have a tendency to sound bittersweet and sad.

I woke up today, my goals in mind (see previous post), and I decided that I should try and be happy as I tried to get on top of my game again.

After all, we all thrive off happiness :]

Random things that make me happy...

(photos taken from my old phone. other things which make me happy include the awesome people i meet again during peer tutoring, my awesome 4H, music, doodling, sleeping... etc :D)




Friday, May 7, 2010

At high energy levels, bla bla bla.

I get very tired too easily these days.. not very good, especially since I can improve that much more.

Anyway, recently TWO events kind of made me found the Cheryl in GESS again :)


Firstly, my GP teacher had told me that my PI was good.

On the surface, it was all, awww, good la, then you get high marks for PW.
But for me, for me that comment was so much more. My english was still there.

When I entered JC, I was so worried because it was one of the better JCs.
And me, I was just another NSK* from another neighbourhood school, one which not many people in the North have heard of. What kind of right, what kind of qualification did I have to show and be proud of the level of English Language and critical thinking skills GESS had inculcated in me? Just another NSK, amid the sea of Elites and scholars from 'Ang-Moh-Speaking' families.

But that day, when my tutor looked at me and said the way I wrote was what she wanted, I saw Ms Chia returning to me my graded Literature O-Level Prelim Paper, smiling and nodding as she told me that my lit essay-writing was finally - finally - back on track.


The second event was when my Bio tutor said my Bio Article Review was one of the better ones in class.

Sure, I didn't top the whole bio-taking cohort (like the awesome Shruthi!! xD) neither did I even get an 'A' for the review, but it was something. It was a reminder, an encouragement.

I remember in Secondary 3, I'd come in second after Lisin Mom for many bio tests, squealing at the A's I had attained and promising myself that I'd work harder do as well as Lisin the next time round.
Somewhere, somehow, as I alighted at Yio Chu Kang MRT Station to go to school everyday instead of getting off at Redhill, I'd lost that part of me who spurred myself on. I'd lost the Cheryl who wanted to take pride in her work and nod in self-approval before going to bed.


So now. Now, I'm going to find her.


I've (hopefully) fought free of that horrible cloud of doom and depression which descended upon me suddenly and ruthlessly in February; it was like breaking the surface of the ocean to take in lungfuls after lungfuls of pure, cold oxygen after struggling so hard against the pressure.

So now I'm going to try and pull myself out of the ocean entirely. I'm going back on land, back to having that spirit which cried Onward! after every strike of disaster, after every taste of sweet victory.

I'm going to try, and even if I fail, life goes on, so I'll move on. With support or own my own, I will move on after failures (which are bound to come) and victories (which might come, provided I work hard enough).

Come on, Cheryl :)

After all, a winner makes commitments. A loser makes promises.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Busy as a Bumblebee.

Part 1: General speech (3 mins per candidate)

You will have to prepare a speech for the CCA which should include:

a. Brief introduction about yourself (previous CCA and position held, your interests etc)

b. The position (s) you are running for in this election

c. What your beliefs and values are as a leader

d. What you would like to achieve for Visual Arts should you get that position eventually

Nuuugh. Looking at this kinda makes my brain fried. Kinda.
I'm okay with speaking up and all, but if I planned a speech, I'm afraid I'd end up not sounding like myself, but like someone who was running for VA Exco. Which I am. But I don't want to be passed of like that. If you know what I mean.

OKAY. I am finally done with touching-up for my GPP. Yay much!!
And by the way, while I think PW is rather painful, I do not agree that it is a terrible process, or anything along those lines. But that's another story for another day :]

I forgot to to Chem Practical Planning. *headdesk*

I need to do my Biology revision before I rot.

AND OMG LA. I didn't do the Atomic Structure tutorial, but for THIS TUTORIAL OF ALL TUTORIALS, my Chem Tutor finished it within the week. WTF MUCH. Time for some solo Atomic Structure training T_____T

And I MUST REMEMBER to think about my speech (NO CORNY LINES WHICH ALL SPEAKERS ARE PRONE TO, GIRL!) during my breaks tomorrow.

AND SPEAKING OF BREAKS, my timetable is UGLAY. Tyvm.

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And this, people, is why I am ready to grow a couple of antennas and buzz like a yellow-and-black freak which I am sure I am morphing into soon.